Games Games Games

Card of the Day:	Reverse Death
Interpretation:	Stagnation. I want to change, but something's preventing me. I blame Sloth.

I have far too many games. Home console, handheld, board games, I have too many. I don't play computer games much, though. I think it's because I like the feeling of a controller in my hand more than I like mouse/keyboard. Or maybe because my computer isn't good enough to play the latest games. Or that I have a Mac. But whatever it is, I don't really play computer games.

First and foremost in my life, I am a gamer. I play games for their entertainment value, to pass the time, and to connect with people. There's only so much you can learn about a person by sitting down and talking to them. Get them into a game, however, and you learn so much more about the person than you ever would through hours of small talk. Plus, meeting through a common interest, such as gaming, makes a much firmer foundation for a budding friendship than mere acquaintance does.

At some point, I'm going to go through each of the games I have and expound their virtues while bashing them for random other reasons. Not only does this allow me to rant about my favorite games, it also lets me remember which games I still need to finish! Trust me, it's a lot more than you think.

Yesterday's Card:	Reversed Five of Wands
Reflection:	I'll be honest. I'm not sure what this even means.

Gamer's Games

Card of the Day:	Eight of Swords
Interpretation:	Trapped in the ways I go. Sadly, this isn't telling me anything I don't know. But perhaps now that it's out in the open, I can escape it.

More than anything else, I love to play games. Role playing games, board games, Live-Action role play, video games, card games. I am a gamer. This is a fact of life.

When it comes to video games, my preferred genre is Role playing game. Tactical, turn based, action, I don't care. I enjoy Final Fantasy Tactics, Persona 4, and Kingdom Hearts. I begin here because I love to talk about games. Strategy, plot analysis, mechanic analysis, it's all fun and games to me. I'm not going to start today, because I don't have a good game in mind. I'm currently playing Pokémon Diamond (yes, I'm back a generation) in an attempt to fill the Pokédex. When I have the time, I'm currently playing Marvel vs Capcom 3, which I'm not that good at. I'm trying to improve, but I just don't have the time! Oh the woes of being a student gamer.

Now that I've introduced my passions, I'm going to just dive in next time I want to talk about games :)

Yesterday's Card:	Reversed Seven of Coins
Reflection:	Yesterday was, perhaps, a day where I have been the most frustrated without a good explanation. Not a good thing.

A Time for Introspection

Card of the Day:	King of Coins
Interpretation:	The implication here is success. Perhaps it is time to start a new project. Hmmm... I do believe I have another writing project I've been thinking about. I believe I might begin writing it today.

Perhaps I'll spend my first few posts getting to know myself better. As if I didn't already know, right? Well, that's the thing. Being yourself is a lot like speaking your native tongue. There are rules that you don't think about, but you follow them. There are certain words (or patterns) that are more common, but you just don't think about it. I go through the motions of being me without necessarily knowing the why.

I like the why.

I'm a rational being. Everything happens for a reason, even the really crappy stuff. Mind you, I'm not saying that the reasons have to be GOOD, they just have to exist. I believe in cause and effect. I like to observe the effect and think "what caused this?" In this case, I like to analyze my past, and find how it caused the person I am today.

As you can probably see, I am posting a "card of the day" with my posts. I have recently obtained a tarot deck (The Legacy of the Divine Tarot, if you care), and am learning through the "card a day" method. I am using this as a tool to reflect on myself; who I am, and who I want to be. Essentially, this blog is an extension of that quest.

Tarot is interesting, especially to someone like me. It's supposed to be a tool for divination and introspection. Yet there's no evidence that its predictions actually mean anything. But for introspection, anything that makes you think can be used for that. Tarot is as good as anything else for that.

As I mentioned above, I claim I'm rational. Then why do I seem to believe in something that has no grounds in rational fact? A desire for something more than what this world appears to be. It's as simple as that. Why do people cling to religions that don't necessarily have any factual grounds for their belief systems other than stories written in their holy works? For the same reason. We want to believe that there is something more than this meager existence we live. We want our lives to mean something. This is why we turn elsewhere than this world for hope and comfort.

I do not know whether or not a deck of cards holds any power to perceive the future. I do not know if all of the things people believe are reality or merely stories. What I do believe is that there's more to this world than even science can explain.

My evidence? Luck.

Luck can't be explained. There's a certain thing called the "butterfly effect" that can hide many causes of "lucky" occurrences, but there are some things you just can't explain. Those times you're playing a card game, and you need that one specific card to come up, and it does. For some people, this seems to happen consistently through no effort of their own. Probability can explain this somewhat, but when people start avoiding even the standard deviations, you start to wonder. That, and serendipity is crazy.

And so, in my search for causality in my life, I will be using the tarot as my tool for reflection. Whether or not I choose to talk about myself in my post, I will have that box at the top. It will probably get more organized and purposeful as I go.

Yesterday's Card:	The Hanged Man (XII)
Reflection:	Oh yes. I started this blog yesterday. It will be my tool for reflection, represented by the Hanged Man himself.

Beginnings

Card:	The Hanged Man (XII)
Int:	A time for introspection. Perhaps I need to step back for a moment and choose my direction carefully, rather than walking blindly forward.

I'm not a writer.

I'm not saying I can't write. I'm not saying I don't know my grammatical rules or how to create a coherent and well-supported point. I'm not saying that my depictions are tell, not show.

I'm saying I don't write.

I'd like that to change.

I don't want to be a published writer. I don't want to publish fiction in hardcover or paperback. I don't want to discover some theory or explore some philosophical point that no one has ever thought of before. I don't want to make money off of my writing.

But I want to write, and I want people to know who I am.

I love to create. I love to depict otherworldly vistas, the taste of dust in your mouth, and even the ideas racing through my mind. But most of all, I love adaptation. I love crossovers; mashing 2 worlds or mechanics together to get something completely new. Or even something the same, but with a slight enhancement.

This is who I am.

Perhaps I will discover something to write about. Perhaps I will simply write what I feel. Perhaps I will mix it up. I'm eclectic; I can do that. I can write philosophy. I can write about my favorite video games. I can post a poem or two.

So join me, won't you? We'll see where this story takes me, through all the twists and turns of life.